THE L-E-W WELCOMES YOU!!!

R.I.P. Nibbles. :(

2008-11-19T18:08:26Z

A while back I picked up a little kitten on the side of the road here in town. The poor thing was stranded so I decided to take him home and take of him. I think the poor thing was partially deaf or blind, because its reaction time was not like any other cats, in that he had none at all.

Anyway, long story short, my dad accidentally ran him over this morning. He's dead. frown

Something like this was bound to happen sooner or later. That kitten never moved out of the way of my car or my parents' cars. It was very lame (meaning he must have been very sick or something). I may be wrong, but I think that little cat had a death wish because he must have been in such pain somehow. I just hope now it can find peace. frown

Writer's Block: Under the Tree

2008-11-19T18:05:13Z

What gifts, big or small, are you hoping to find under the tree this year?

R.I.P. Heath Ledger

2008-01-23T00:57:37Z

Gone too soon...

ultimatelewser @ 2008-01-08T22:15:00

2008-01-09T03:16:40Z

Happy 2008 (Yeah, a little late. Sorry about that)

So I'm back in school now, and it feels weird. More later.

The Best Thing Ever!

2007-02-16T08:31:58Z

ultimatelewser @ 2007-01-27T12:09:00

2007-01-27T17:36:13Z

So last night I had this weird dream. It wasn't very consistent (none of my dreams are of course), but I dreamed I had a Mac PowerBook (which would be awesome) and I was at this Sci-Fi convention where they had half the cast of the show "Heroes" (which would be EXTREMELY awesome). So needly to say it was a very pleasant dream.

I went to see "Blood and Chocolate" yesterday with sirenica. She liked it, but I wasn't too keen on it myself. Call me old-fashion, but if I'm going to see a werewolf movie, I expect there to be horror and lots of blood and gore. The whole man-to-wolf transformation where they transform in a flash of light? I don't by that! Being a werewolf is NOT supposed to look cool. It's not supposed to make you say, gee I want to be a werewolf. No one in their right mind WANTS to be a werewolf. It's a curse!

Another thing that irked me about the movie was that the men turn into actual wolves. Correct me if I'm wrong, but doesn't werewolf stand for "part man, part wolf" and thus shouldn't the wolf be more of a human-lupin habrid? I don't buy the whole elegance of being a werewolf. Vampires can pull off elegance, but wolves are more beastly by nature. They're supposed to be gruffy and mangy. I think "Underworld" got it right in the sense of comparing the more sinfully beautiful vampires with the gritty, feral werewolves. With this movie it was like they were trying to mix both worlds, and it didn't do it for me. I expect to see a horrific transformation like from "The Howling" or "An American Werewolf in London" where we see the true nation of the werewolf come into form.

So in short, if you like melodrama with elegant, unrealistic werewolves, this is the movie for you.

End transmission.

-LEW

Guess who's back!!!

2007-01-26T08:11:22Z

Salutations, friends! Looks like I'm back on the good old LJ...again. This time it is all because a lovely young woman has inspired me to come back. Thank you Ms. sirenica for bringing me back into the LJ Game! Love you, hun!

So, what can I say now...these past couple of months I've been in the employment of Toys 'R' Us for the seasonal help. And since business has been down I've been on the job hunt. And now I'm seriously considering going back to school and finish up my degree. I kinda wish I had not taken two years off; now I feel I'm way behind. Well, now I got some catching up to do. I'm hoping I get closer to my goal of being a published sequential artist (that's comic book artist to you uneducated folk). So wish me luck with that.

Oh, last month I got a Nintendo Wii! How cool is that? I've already beat Zelda on there (awesome!). Now I just need to look into get some more games, like WarioWare Smooth Moves or Madden NFL '07. My girlfriend likes to play the WiiSports Tennis. So it's fun for everyone! :D

Well, I guess I better go now. I will try and keep you all up to date on what's going on, if you all are interested that is. Well, thanks for sticking with me. Love you all!

-LEW

My First Entry in Forever

2006-09-18T23:37:28Z

After a long extended absense from the LJ scene, I have made my triumphant return.

Well, I'm now without a job, and without a wallet; so that means I have NO MONEY whatsoever. Go me! Well, I guess there are bigger injustices in the world. I'm without a job because I quit my job at the Italian Oven; I know it may have been a stupid decision to make, but I really don't care. I hated working there! Reasons being: 1)I didn't like the people I was working with; the people I worked with when I started were cool, but they're all but gone now and I was stuck with a bunch of bratty kids who are so gosh-durn lazy. I'm pretty sure most of them were doing drugs. 2) I didn't like the way the place was being ran. I think the owner had his priorities all out of whack; he was such a cheap-skate. Plus we were severely understaffed and he doesn't seem to hire people. When he does he hires people who just don't get it and struggle very badly; they're usually kids straight out of high school. 3) I wasn't making as much money as I hoped I would. Considering all the hours I worked and all the tables I got, I didn't have much to show for it. It's mainly because I received bad tips; I think I'm an all right server, but still I get poor tippers. Well, that's Peachtree City for you.

Anyway, I didn't care if I had another job lined up; I had to get away from that place. I felt I wasn't paying attention to what was more important; like working on my comic pages and trying to get back into school. That's what I need to focus on; getting back to school and get a degree so that I can get a REAL job with a REAL pay. I know some people can make a career out of waiting tables, but I'm not one of them. I absolutely hate it! I don't care what kind of job I get next, I never want to work in the food service industry again. That's all I have to say on that matter.

But of course the worst part about all of this is that I lost my wallet. So I don't have money, a driver's license, or a credit card to my name. So basically I'm going to have a new beginning of sorts. Perhaps it's for the best; these past few days have made me put a lot of things in perspective. I know now that I need more than anything else to get back into school and continue getting an education. No more jerking around on anything else; this is the most important thing in my life, or at least one of the most important things. I want to get a degree so that I can land a good job with a good pay and I can finally move out on my own and not have to be dependent on anyone ever again.

So I guess I'm going by the DMV to get a new license tomorrow; plus I need to go to the bank to make sure they've cancel my bank card and I can get another one. Then I have to deposit some money in for a car payment this month. Man, I kinda wish I had planned this all out better, but I still don't regret much. I'm not working at the Oven anymore, and that's all that really matters. I just need a small break from working right now. Once I get my priorities straighten out, everything will go back to normal. This is all going to work out somehow. I know it will.

L-E-W

ultimatelewser @ 2006-04-03T17:04:00

2006-04-03T21:04:09Z

This article really spoke to me. It reminds me of a loved-one who has the same struggle. In many ways, I read this and I see this person. It breaks my heart, yet at the same time it gives me hope. And I hope it does the same for you too, if you can identify with it:

Some anorexics don't want to recover - October 14, 2002
Knight Ridder Newspapers

They live by The Thin Commandments.

''If you aren't thin, you aren't attractive.''

''Being thin is more important than being healthy.''

''Take laxatives, starve yourself, do anything to be thinner.''

Many of them have never met in person, but they know each other through Web sites that promote anorexia and other eating disorders. They become a community of intimate strangers. They believe their way of life is a choice, not a disease. They see themselves as people in control, not as victims. They do not want to recover.

They strive to be perfect.

Thin, thinner, thinnest.

They go into treatment and fool their families, friends and doctors into thinking they want to get better. But online, they share their true feelings, feelings others do not understand. They link to each other's Web sites. They move from server to server when the sites are shut down. They find one another again.

To mark membership in this anonymous community, they wear red bracelets.

Elizabeth Knaak of Stewart, Minn., knows this world well. Anorexic for half her life, Knaak, 18, spent hours at these sites. The stories resonated with her, not the pictures of twiggy models or the lists of weight-loss tips.

In these stories, Knaak found others who understood why she was 5-foot-8 and 50 pounds. They understood why she wanted to give up anorexia to spare her parents more anguish. But they also understood why she couldn't, because anorexia was such a big part of her identity.

''I thought, 'This is me,' '' Knaak says. ''I'm not the only one who feels this way.''

In the United States, 5 million to 10 million girls and women and 1 million boys and men suffer from eating disorders after puberty. Anorexia nervosa, or self-starvation, has one of the highest mortality rates of any psychiatric illness. Its causes are complex, a collision of genetics and environment.

In the past three years, a smaller group of anorexics has emerged, made up of people who describe themselves as ''pro-anorexia'' or ''pro-ana,'' for short. They are an organized, technologically savvy community. But their numbers are hard to pin down because they do not show up on the treatment radar. Eating-disorder specialists characterize them as a small, vocal and proactive minority.

''We all have ways of dealing with desperation,'' says Dr. Joel Jahraus, medical director of the Eating Disorders Institute at Methodist Hospital in St. Louis Park, Minn. ''My own feeling is that these are extremely desperate individuals. They're often isolated and lonely. (The Web sites are) a way to build community in a sense, albeit rather perverse.''

Instead of creating a healthy community, he says, the sites encourage destructive behaviors that can lead to osteoporosis; electrolyte imbalances; heart, kidney and liver problems; and death. Those with eating disorders often also are dealing with other health conditions, such as depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety and, sometimes, self-injury.

Often, pro-anorexics are just not ready to address the underlying issues that trouble them. Instead, they rationalize their actions as healthy, says Marna Canterbury, a registered dietitian who has treated people with eating disorders for 13 years,

Dr. Scott Crow, associate professor of psychiatry at the University of Minnesota, does not believe that pro-anorexics suffer from a form of anorexia that is different from those who do not use the sites.

''I think they're very likely to be fairly standard: They have anorexia nervosa, plain and simple,'' Crow says. ''For whatever reason, they're taking a different approach.''

That approach is public and anonymous, through a forum that sends contradictory messages. On the one hand, these sites carry warnings that the content may ''trigger'' people with eating disorders. Some also have links to recovery sites.

Yet, the bulk of the sites are devoted to getting - and staying - skinny, with tips for keeping weight down, lists of safe foods, photographs of ''ana idols.'' Other sites have photos of grossly obese women, with the warning, ''Please, please, don't.'' Some encourage people to wear red bracelets to show support and solidarity for one another.

Some sites get so many page hits that, by midmonth, the sites are inaccessible. Visitors must wait until the next month to get access again. Recently, one young woman in southern Minnesota considered shutting down her pro-ana site after receiving hate e-mail. Several people begged her to keep it alive.

''All my life, I have been on the outside looking in. Hating who I am makes me feel so lonely, but finding out about sites like yours saved me,'' said one anonymous poster.

''My friends, family and even my boyfriend are really overprotective, and they watch my every move. I need advice on how to do this, but in secret. I need support, which I don't get from my 'friends,''' said another.

And this: ''Before I was trying to convince myself that something was wrong with me and that anorexia was a horrible thing, but now, after reading this site and many others, I know that all I have is a healthy goal that I am working toward. What's so wrong with that?''

Growing up, Knaak was never overweight.

She never felt pressure to be thin. She did not watch much television or read magazines, so images of stick-thin models did not affect her.

But she was a bright and sensitive child. She felt responsible for others' feelings and ignored her own. When people around her were upset, she assumed she was the cause.

At age 9, she had a falling-out with two friends, a memory that still aches. She went from being a bubbly little girl to a very quiet child, her mother says.

She changed in other ways, too. Bit by bit, she eliminated foods from her diet, eventually getting by on rice cakes, fruits and vegetables. She'd run endlessly around the yard to burn off any calories she consumed.

''I remember making her eat a DQ,'' says her mother, Irene Knaak. ''She ate it. She went outside. She ran around the yard. I found her by our gas barrel throwing up.''

To this day, Knaak doesn't know what led her to her destructive ways. She just knew that she had to starve herself.

''It wasn't like I picked up a magazine one day and said, 'I'm going to have anorexia,''' she says.

Knaak's parents took her to the first of many counselors when she was just 9. At age 10, she was hospitalized for the first time, in a teen psychiatric ward. She was terrified, homesick and forbidden to see her parents unless she ate. She suppressed her feelings, ate and went home.

Knaak wrestled with other health conditions, too. In the seventh grade, she began cutting herself to cope with feelings of anger, sadness and self-hate. Using knives and razors, she'd cut herself on the ankles, feet and other inconspicuous places. She'd do it as punishment for making her mom cry.

Knaak also suffered from depression.

''Anorexia was like a good friend,'' Knaak says. ''I could always rely on it to be there. It wasn't going to go away. I could turn to it.''

Over the years, Knaak tried various outpatient and inpatient programs, with mixed success. In the hospital, she couldn't just eat; she felt she had to justify her eating - to her eating disorder. So, she'd rationalize it was her ticket home - to her room, her stuff, her beloved cat. Besides, she knew everyone was watching her.

So, she'd give the right answers.

She'd eat.

She'd gain weight.

She'd get out of treatment.

She'd go back to her old ways.

''I kept telling the doctor that I wanted to get better,'' Knaak says. ''I think I wanted to believe it. I thought maybe if I said it enough, I would get better. Deep down, it wasn't true.''

The tug-o-war between eating and not eating continued. For a long time, trust was in scant supply at the Knaak home, Irene Knaak says. At home, Knaak ate with her parents, but stashed her food at every opportunity. She'd stuff it in her pockets and shoes and dump it when they weren't looking.

''We had many battles,'' Irene Knaak says. ''We found food everywhere. I'd find it in the couch, cornfield, furnace.''

Anorexia's pull was very strong.

''The eating disorder would continually tell me not to eat. It never gave me a reason why,'' Knaak says. ''It's like going to a traffic light that is green, but the mind says it's red. You stay stopped.''

When Knaak was busy, she seemed to dwell less on food. Her parents tried to keep her occupied with activities like swimming and shopping. She helped with chores on the family farm.

''We had to be careful with what we said. We didn't dare push her,'' Irene Knaak says. ''We had to learn that the hard way. The harder we pushed (her to eat), the more she resisted.''

At her lowest, the 5-foot-8 Knaak weighed 50 pounds. At times, Irene Knaak thought her daughter would die.

''She looked like a walking skeleton,'' Irene Knaak says. ''I felt like a failure. Why couldn't I have stopped this? Why couldn't I protect my daughter from this?''

Knaak knew she was hurting the people who loved her most: her parents. At one point, a therapist told them: ''I don't want you to sue me if she dies. She might not get over this.''

Knaak learned about pro-anorexia sites, ironically, on a well-known recovery site.

She was 14. She was rooting around Something Fishy when she noticed a message that bashed sites that promoted eating disorders. Intrigued, she began to dig and soon found links to other pro-ana sites.

For the next 1 1/2 years, Knaak went to the sites regularly. She'd spend lunch hours in the library, chatting online. She'd log on after school. She didn't have many close friends, so this became her social circle.

Here, she found motivation and affirmation to stay anorexic. She figured that if her health didn't get ''too bad'' and she remained at a low weight, everything would be fine.

''I had convinced myself that I wasn't pro-ana, but deep down, I knew I was,'' Knaak says. ''I didn't want to get better.''

Knaak began e-mailing a girl from Wisconsin. They never met or talked on the phone. Knaak liked it that way. She shared her feelings of not wanting to recover, of wanting to recover for her parents, of needing the disorder to be ''me.''

''My goal was to be the best anorexic I could be,'' she says.

Deborah Haddock, a Twin Cities' psychologist who has worked with women with eating disorders for 20 years, says the sites attract younger people who are looking for support as they form their own identities. One buddy sign-up list invites people as young as 10 to join.

''The eating disorder becomes their identity,'' Haddock says. ''They refer to Ana and Mia (short for bulimia) as their best friends.''

Psychologist Sue Babcock of St. Paul, Minn., says the ''three Ds'' - drive for thinness, body dissatisfaction and dieting - create an environment ripe for these sites. When people lose weight, society praises them, so it's easy to see why these sites gain a following, she says.

Last summer, the National Eating Disorders Association and other health professionals began to lobby for change. They asked Internet service providers to close the sites because they violated their own rules about hosting sites dangerous to the health of individuals and minors, according to Holly Hoff, NEDA's director of programs. At the time, NEDA had a list of more than 100 sites. Many were shut down, only to reappear elsewhere.

''(Anorexia) is security,'' says Jill Ajao, a Twin Cities psychologist who overcame an eating disorder and now counsels others. ''I tell people that your need for security is not wrong, but we're going to have to figure out another way to get it.''

Ajao says the process of recovery begins when the eating disorder becomes ''uncomfortable'' - physically, financially or otherwise. But the desire to lose weight remains. That is the big struggle in recovery.

''A lot of people say, 'I won't let it get that bad. Is there a moderate eating disorder weight?''' Ajao says. ''I don't believe that. It's never really just about the food, the weight. It's an addiction. It's something to keep you out of feelings.''

Over the years, Knaak met other pro-anorexics in the hospital.

Some became her best friends. They talked about who could hide the most food, who could stay anorexic the longest, who could be the sickest. Many were prepared to die. Once, she met an 11-year-old girl, hospitalized for the first time.

''I saw myself,'' Knaak says. ''I saw the young girl - not knowing what she was getting into, not knowing why she was doing it, knowing that she was disappointing her parents. It was a replay of my own life.''

Knaak continued to struggle with the disorder.

During her last hospitalization, in February 2001, she wondered how the girls she met could put themselves through so much pain. She hoped they'd make it. But she could not envision herself getting better. She was 17.

After she left the hospital, Knaak enrolled in an outpatient program. In the beginning, she did well. But when the scale inched toward the 100-pound mark, it rattled her. She got her first menstrual cycle, and that threw her, too.

''It made me feel healthy. It made me feel normal. I didn't want to feel that way,'' she says. ''If I was normal, I would lose part of myself, something that had been part of me for almost 10 years. It was a lot of my identity.''

Her doctors wanted her to stay in the outpatient program, but she left in May 2001.

''It was hard for my parents to allow me to do that - not knowing what is going to happen but to trust me enough to know I kind of knew what was best for me,'' she says.

Irene Knaak remembers that day well. That was when she and her husband let go of their guilt.

''There is no cure,'' Irene Knaak says. ''Food is not the issue. She has to be the one to do it. We're there to support her.''

Knaak found a new community for support. Her new nurse practitioner introduced Knaak to her daughter, who had bulimia, and another girl, who had recovered from anorexia. The three met informally.

For the first time, Knaak met someone who was doing well, living on her own and who did not want to return to her old life. She told Knaak that she still struggled but that she had made a conscious decision not to go back. That was a turning point for Knaak, who realized anorexia - her security - would never go away.

''One day, I thought I'd be 'recovered,' '' Knaak says. ''It was a scary thought - this disorder would no longer exist, so if I needed a coping mechanism, I wouldn't have it. It's easier for me to think that I'm in the process of recovering.''

Knaak continued to see the nurse practitioner. She also began confiding in her parents more. She made it through the winter, the season when her depression usually gets worse. She maintained her weight at around 100 pounds. She began writing in a journal. She wrote essays about wanting to recover. She returned to her job at a convenience store. She still cut, but the last time was in January.

''I take it one day at a time,'' Knaak says. ''There are still days that I just want to die. That is my depression talking. Once I get off the couch and start doing something, I'm fine.''

This past spring, she went on a senior class trip to Washington, D.C., and New York. Without her usual structure, she lost 10 pounds. That was a wake-up call.

''Any little thing that isn't in my routine throws me off,'' she says. ''I go back to what is comfortable, which is the anorexia. When I'm all lost in life without a map, I'm going back to what I know.''

Now, her main goal is to maintain her weight. Her blood work and EKGs are normal. But she has osteopenia, the precursor to osteoporosis. Her heart walls are thinner than normal. She doesn't know if she'll ever be able to have a baby.

Knaak just left home for her first year at Creighton University in Omaha, Neb. She wants to major in pre-med and eventually work as a doctor in an eating-disorders institute. She and her parents have contacted the student health center, which can monitor her. She knows about the school counseling service.

Knaak acknowledges that anorexia's tug has not disappeared completely. Occasionally, she reads the postings online. She's saddened by what she reads but does not respond.

When Knaak sends e-mails now, she concludes with quotations of inspiration, not thinspiration.

''Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.''

''Life doesn't have to be perfect to be wonderful.''

''There is no entering the temple of the future without facing the demons of the past.''

New Artwork! It's Number 5IVE!!

2006-03-04T19:02:59Z

Wow! This is totally cool! I recently sent in a drawing of Catwoman for my ArtWanted.com profile. And after just a couple of days it went into the top Ten on the site. (It ranked number 5 even! How arsum is that?)

Here's the image

(copyrighted by DC Comics)

You can check it out here. My portfolio isn't exactly very big right now, but I'm working on some more stuff for it. Hope to have some more in the coming weeks. Until then, enjoy my stuff!

Did I ever mention how much you guys rock!? :D

ultimatelewser @ 2006-01-06T00:30:00

2006-01-06T05:30:28Z

Goodness.....I've gone so long without posting a journal....well, good news is I'm alive and well, working a semi-full-time job, got a new car, and a spectacular girlfriend. :) I guess you can say things are starting to look up now.

Anyway, I've been so busy with work and such that I rarely get on here anymore. For that I apologize. I really do need to start updating more; otherwise I'll have to delete this journal and I know some of you would hate that (^_^). So I will try to update more if you guys promise to stick around with me a little while longer.

I guess that's about it for now. Stay tuned.

Farewell, Mr. Miyagi

2005-11-25T23:36:09Z

From IMDb.com:

'Karate Kid' Star Pat Morita Dies

The Karate Kid star Pat Morita has died at his Las Vegas home. He was 73. The actor and comedian, whose portrayal of Mr. Miyagi in the 1984 movie earned him an Oscar nomination, passed away on Thursday of natural causes, according to his wife of 12 years Evelyn. She says in a statement, "(My husband) dedicated his entire life to acting and comedy." For years, the actor, real name Noriyuki Morita, played small roles in such films as Thoroughly Modern Millie and TV series such as The Odd Couple and Green Acres. His first breakthrough came with classic TV show Happy Days, and he followed with his own brief series Mr. T and Tina. The Karate Kid spawned three sequels ending with 1994's The Next Karate Kid, which paired him with a young Hilary Swank. More recently, Morita provided the voice for a character in the 1998 Disney movie Mulan. Born in northern California on June 28, 1932 to migrant fruit pickers, Morita spent most of his early years in the hospital with spinal tuberculosis. He later recovered only to be sent to a Japanese-American internment camp in Arizona during World War II. After the war, Morita's family tried to repair their finances by running a Sacramento restaurant. It was there that Morita first showed an interest in a showbusiness career, eventually committing to it full time at the age of 30. He is survived by his wife and three daughters from a previous marriage.

ultimatelewser @ 2005-11-10T00:59:00

2005-11-10T05:59:36Z

I'm 23!

w00t!

Getting a new car

w00t w00t!

Should be fun! Hope I get to see a lot of friends this time around! :)

Thanks in advance!

P.S. Like the icon? Got it from here:

http://www.supermanreturns.com

well the picture anyway (^_^)

ultimatelewser @ 2005-11-03T13:36:00

2005-11-03T18:36:39Z

You are...(looks)
[x] tall
[ ] in between
[ ] short
--
[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[x] brunette
[ ] black-haired
--
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed
[x] with glasses
[ ] with contacts
--
[ ] with braces
[ ] with freckles
[ ] with piercings
[ ] with tattoos
[ ] and have long hair
[ ] and have short hair
[x] and have mid-length hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[x] green
[x] blue
[ ] gold
[ ] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[x] indigo

Some things you've done/played include...
[ ] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[x] baseball
[ ] golf (mini-golf only)
[x] chess
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[ ] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] marching band

You are sometimes...
[ ] annoying
[ ] talkative
[x] shy
[x] sweet
[x] funny
[x] mysterious
[x] serious
[ ] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[ ] paranoid
[x] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[ ] hyper
[x] nervous
[x] weird

The music you like is?
[x] rap
[x] rock
[x] pop
[ ] country
[x] hip hop
[x] r&b
[x] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[x] classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[x] punk
[x] Metal
[x] reggae
[x] Goth
[ ] Latin
[x] 90's Grunge
[x] musicals
[x] drum and bass
[x] IDM
[x] goa
[x] Folk
[x] Indie Rock

The pets you have are?
[x] cat
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] snake
[ ] ferret
[ ] spider
[ ] rabbit
[ ] fish
[ ] bird
[ ] hamster
[ ] little brother
[ ] other

You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[ ] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] everything
[x] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[ ] I have no idea
[ ] Bitch

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[ ] a lot of carbs
[x] ice cream
[ ] lots of meat
[x] salad
[x] seafood
[x] exotic dishes
[ ] Mountain Dew

A typical friday night...
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] partying
[ ] doing my homework
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home
[ ] playing videogames
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[x] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently you are...
[x] in a relationship
[ ] single and lovin it
[ ] crushing
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up... and so sad about it
[ ] indifferent

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[x] sup
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[x] ty
[x] j/k
[x] <3
[x] ttyl
[x] g2g
[x] XD
[x] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[x] ^_^
[ ] o_O
[ ] TOT
[ ] OMGOURD

Ever...
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[x] lied to a close friend
[ ] had sex at 16
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras
[x] hate certain things about yourself
[ ] been overseas
[ ] skipped school
[x] been drunk
[x] kissed a member of the same sex
[x] crashed a friend's or family members car
[x] ridden in a taxi
[x] been in love
[x] been dumped
[ ] shoplifted
[x] been fired
[x] snuck out of the house
[ ] ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] ever dated someone of the same sex
[ ] slept with a co-worker
[ ] cut yourself on purpose
[ ] been married
[ ] gotten divorced
[ ] had children
[ ] seen someone die in real life (sort of)
[ ] slapped someone you love
[x] slapped somone (playfully)
[ ] driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival
[ ] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[x] Had a sexual dream about a crush or someone close
[ ] cry a lot
[ ] Thrown up in public
[ ] Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been to the snow
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[x] have been to a rock concert
[x] have dated someone for a year or more
[ ] sold naked pictures of yourself
[x] feel stupid
[x] been in a car accident
[x] slept in the nude
[ ] Thought of doing something sexual with someone related
[x] eaten cheesecake
[ ] been to court
[x] hated someone without knowing them
[x] Addicted to the internet
[x] family/friends caused stress or even depresion
[ ] shot a real gun
[ ] had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
[ ] made out with someone you just met
[ ] done ecstasy or weed
[x] gotten your ass kicked
[ ] been caught smoking
[ ] milked a cow
[x] got in a verbal fight
[ ] Threw a party while your parents weren't home without them knowing
[ ] Done something with a friends bf/gf
[ ] Done something with a friends sibling
[ ] Committed a major crime
[ ] Are flat chested
[x] Suffered/s Depression
[ ] Dated someone older than you are
[x] Dated someone younger than you are
[ ] Been in trouble with the cops
[ ] Run away
[x] Ever given someone a hicky
[x] Ever gotten a hicky
[x] Believe in love
[x] Ever got super drunk
[x] Had your heart broken
[x] Went skinny dipping
[x] Been moshing at a show
[ ] Led people to believe that you're Lesbian or Gay
[x] thought about killing yourself
[ ] had anal sex
[ ] taken painkillers
[x] miss someone right now
[ ] went to prom
[ ] Bungee jumped
[ ] Lied about where you're going
[ ] Ever lied about your age
[ ] Had a threesome
[x] taken a shower with a member of the opposite sex
[ ] Lied in this survey by not putting a 'X' in something you have done

ultimatelewser @ 2005-10-19T23:47:00

2005-10-20T03:49:02Z

You fit in with:
Spiritualism

Your ideals are mostly spiritual, but in an individualistic way. While spirituality is very important in your life, organized religion itself may not be for you. It is best for you to seek these things on your own terms.

60% spiritual.
60% reason-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

ultimatelewser @ 2005-10-16T22:35:00

2005-10-17T02:36:53Z

GOOD NEWS, EVERYONE!

I've landed a job at the Italian Oven as a server. So far I'm liking it.

And to make things even more exciting....I think I have a girlfriend! She's the most wonderful girl I've met in a while. I'm so happy. :)

Camel Toads!

2005-10-12T18:43:31Z

ultimatelewser @ 2005-10-09T00:37:00

2005-10-09T04:38:40Z

Comic Book Guy
You dork! You scored 62!

You are a big fat sarcastic Simpsons dork!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 90% on duff bottles

Link: The Simpsons Dork Test written by girl_x on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Yup! Yup! Re-cog-nize!

:-D

ultimatelewser @ 2005-10-08T00:13:00

2005-10-08T04:14:27Z

I'm finally getting a job! Yeah! :-D

ultimatelewser @ 2005-10-05T17:21:00

2005-10-05T21:21:31Z

I didn't get the job.

Oh well.

*sigh*

ultimatelewser @ 2005-10-03T20:27:00

2005-10-04T00:28:05Z

I saw Serenity and MirrorMask this weekend. Both are really good.

I may getting another job soon, waiting tables for Red Lobster. Wish me luck! :)

That is all.

The Religious Mule

2005-09-29T00:26:02Z

There once was a priest that lived in the Midwest. He was walking around town one day in the Marketplace, when he came across this one merchant selling a mule.
He approached the merchant and asked, "How much is this mule?"
"For you, Father, I'll charge you only $10."
The priest paid for the mule and was about to go when the merchant stopped him to say, "Now, Father, before you leave, there is something about this mule you must know about it. When riding it, the only way you can get him to go is if you say, 'Praise the Lord!'"
The priest was amused to hear that this was a religious mule. "How delightful!"
"yes," said the merchant, "but this mule is one of a kind. He can go faster than any mule you've ever seen! But I must warn you, he may a little too fast for your taste, so should he get too fast for you, simply shout out, 'Hallelujah!' and he will stop in his tracks." The priest was a little bewildered to hear this, but didn't bother to question the merchant's advice and began to head back to his parish.

A few weeks had past and the priest had yet to ride the mule, but rather kept in the stables to rest. So one day, out of shear boredom, the priest took the mule out of the stable. He was ready to ride it.
He hopped up on the mules back and said, "Go!" But the mule did not move. He said, "Heeyah!" and the mule stayed still. The priest was aggravated, but then remembered what the merchant had said to him on the day he bought the mule.
So in a firm voice, he said "Praise the Lord!" And with that, the mule jetted off into the desert. It was incredible. The mule really was fast. As fast as the merchant had boasted. He ran through the wild desert avoiding anything in his path like snakes and cacti and the such. He truly was the fastest mule the priest had ever seen. Too fast, maybe.

After two hours or so, the priest was ready to stop. So he shouted at the mule "Stop!" but the mule kept going. The priest shouted it again, but the mule would not stop. He began to panic at this point; he had forgotten the word to say to get the mule to stop. And if it wasn't any worse, the two of them were coming towards a ravine, about 200 feet or more. The priest saw where they were headed and became hysterical.

Time was running out; he had to figure out what the merchant had said to him the day he bought the mule. What was it? What was the word? Then finally, as if God was touching the priest with His own hand, the priest sang out "HALLELUJAH!" And with that the mule screeched to a halt and the two of them found themselves at the very edge of the cliff. The priest looked down to see the deep ravine. Relieved, he wiped his brow and said, "Whew! Praise the Lord!"

(^_^)

ultimatelewser @ 2005-09-27T18:32:00

2005-09-27T22:33:20Z

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Sad thing is...if I died now, it'd be true (^_^)

ultimatelewser @ 2005-09-21T00:11:00

2005-09-21T04:11:59Z

You are a
Social Moderate
(56% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(30% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Democrat

Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid Free Online Dating

stolen from kibbie

2005-08-15T16:20:09Z

Only number the ones you've seen. If you've numbered 70 or more, you're a movie whore (^_^)

(01) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(02) Grease
(03) Pirates of the Caribbean
(04 ) Boondock Saints
(05) The Mexican
(06) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(07) Neverending Story
(08) Blazing Saddles
() Airplane
(09) The Princess Bride
(10) Young Frankenstien
(11) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(12) Napoleon Dynamite
() Saw
() White Noise
() White Oleander
() Anger Management
(13) 50 First Dates
(14) Jason X
(15) Scream
(16) Scream 2
() Scream 3
(17) Scary Movie
(18) Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
() American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
(19) Harry Potter
(20) Harry Potter 2
(21) Harry Potter 3
() Resident Evil I
()Resident Evil 2
(22) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black book
(23) The Village
(24) Donnie Darko
(25) Lilo & Stitch
(26) Finding Nemo
() Finding Neverland
() 13 Ghosts
(28) Signs
() The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() White Chicks
() Butterfly Effect
() Thirteen Going on 30
() I, Robot
() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact
(29) KingPin
() Never Been Kissed
(30) Meet The Parents
() Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(31) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
() Final Destination
() Final Destination 2
() Halloween
(32) The Ring
() The Ring 2
(33) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
() Practical Magic
(34) Chicago
(35) Ghost Ship
() From Hell
(36) Hellboy
(37) Secret Window
(38) I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
() The Day After Tomorrow
() Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
() Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
() Gothika
() Nightmare on Elm Street
(39) Sixteen Candles
() Coach Carter
() Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
(40) Seven
() Oceans Eleven
() Oceans Twelve
() Identity
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
(41) Predator I
() Predator II
(42) Independence Day
() Cujo
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(43) ET
() Children of the Corn
() My Boss' Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
() Frailty
() Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(44) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
(45) Sideways
(46) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
() Ever After
(47) Forrest Gump
(48) Big Trouble in Little China
(49) X-Men
(50) X-2: X-Men United
() Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(51) Catch Me If You Can
(52) The Others
(53) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
() Cruel Intentions
(54) The Hot Chick
() Swimfan
() Miracle
(55) Old School
(56) Ray
(57) The Notebook
() K-Pax
(58) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(59) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(60) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(61) A Walk to Remember
() Boogeyman
() Hitch
(62) The Fifth Element
(63) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(64) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(65) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(66) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(67) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(68) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi...
() Troop Beverly Hills
(69) Swimming with Sharks
() Air Force One
() For Richer or Poorer
(70) Trainspotting
() People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
(71) Sound of Music
() Parent Trap 1
() Parent Trap 2
(72) The Burbs
(73) The Terminator
(74) Empire Records
() SLC Punk
() Meet Joe Black
() A Bronx Tale